Why I’m Quitting…

So I started this blog off with great intentions. I planned on writing to the mom that is in need of help.

To no surprise, I fizzled out quickly. I felt like I wasn’t making an impact. Why?

Firstly, because what baby items you need isn’t something that hasn’t been posted about and shared 1,000,000 other times.

Secondly, because these moms that are struggling can’t find their best answer by googling it, or posting it in a facebook group…

They can find their best answer by opening the Word of God and praying.

I know that I need to use my blog to show others that I am a woman of God.

I’m a woman of God that struggles. 

I’m a woman of God that has let the devil get the best of her.

I’m a woman of God that was turning to the internet instead of the Bible. 

I’m a woman of God that came up empty handed, only more exhausted after trying everything that had been suggested. 

I’m a woman of God that is finally making her way back to Jesus. 

And I’m a woman of God that knows that Jesus loves me even though I have messed up countless times and put my trust in other things. 

I know that I need to show people the love and grace that Jesus shows me everyday.

“In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials, that the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ,” -1 Peter 1:6&7

The last few years have been hard for my whole family. We’ve suffered with the loss of family members, young and old. We’ve dealt with things that were just down right hurtful and awful.

These hardships have made it hard for me to trust God’s judgement. My heart has been broken so many times, and I just felt like if I stayed away from it all that it would make it easier.

Well, it doesn’t work that way… Trials and tribulations are inescapable. 

But, I have to choose how I really want to deal with these hard times in my life. Do I go it alone and see what happens? Or do I trust that God’s got me?

“My brethren, count is all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let the patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.” – James 1:2-4

“And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope.” -Romans 5:3-4

“But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you.” -1 Peter 5:10

I’ve been doing this my own way for far too long. It has gotten me no where. 

I’m still the same miserable me.

I’ve been engaging in more negative self-talk than I have talking with Jesus.

I’ve been reading more blog posts than I have been reading the Bible.

I’ve been judging others like I’m better than them.

I’ve been a terrible example of what a Godly woman looks like.

And I am here to say that I’m quitting. 

I’m quitting letting the devil manipulate me. I’m quitting the world and all it has to “offer”. I’m quitting labeling myself unworthy of God’s love. I’m quitting being a coward. I’m quitting thinking I’m better than other people.

Instead, I’m starting over. I’m making small steps back into the arms of my savior. I’m showing my children that it’s okay to mess up. I’m working on myself.

I know I’m not perfect. I know that I will never be perfect.

But, to God I am called holy.

“but as He who alled you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct, because it is written, “Be holy, for I am holy.” -1 Peter 1:15&16